Wednesday, December 21, 2016
Who would have ever believe this would go on so long!!
The 2nd Steriod shot was short lived. I continued to live everyday in debilitating pain. Today I met with a surgeon. I will have surgery a week from tomorrow. He will clean out L4-L5 and FINALLY free the sciatic nerve and give me pain relief!! I am at peace with this. I know I can not live life the way I am now. I told the doctor "I have to get back to work!!"" and "I want my life back!" Please continue to pray for me. My journey is changing me, challenging me and making me assess what I thought was important. I have awakend to the realization of how much I took for granted. I know we don't find God in the good times. Sometimes we don't find God at night when you cry out to Him to help you. But I know God is helping me when he sents good faithfilled people to encourage and pray with me. I could see the Hand of God when the doctor walked into the room and said, "Hey I know you! YOU were the nurse when our last baby was born." God had a hand in this years before. He is the past , present and future. Okay God, I'm ready to move on with my life. Lets celebrate Christmas. The time of faith and hope. and than a few days later I will submit to faith and hope in spinal surgery! Let it happen!! I am ready !!
Monday, December 12, 2016
Today Dec. 12 finds me still controlled my the nerve pain in my leg. Mr Pain has been weakened by my first steroid shot, but has not been conquered. It been almost two weeks since my injection. I would say I am about 50% better than what I was. Now I can walk almost upright. I can get in and out or the bed with less pain (still the hardest thing I do). But I am not able to walk very far, not able to take a step without searing pain in the back of my thigh and hip. Although the pain is a 7 now instead of a 10 I am still a prisoner. The best thing is I am able to get in my car with a step stole and drive!!!
I went to the Pain and Spine Doctor today and I will be getting a second injection on Wednesday. He's hope is if I got a 50% improvement with the first injection I'll see another 50% with this one. All I know if this injection does not give me what I need, I am ready for surgery!!
I began my pain on Oct. 31.The three weeks before my bowel surgery was the worst. (I still believe that the two things; bowel being strangled by scar tissue and back are connected. But no one seems to be interested in connecting the two). All I know is I'm exhausted of the pain and limitations it has put on my life.
I will have the 2nd injection Wednesday at 3:45. Today I cried when I told the doctor I am ready for this pain to be over. I NEED to get back to work. Its so scary when you have no control over your body.
I wonder why this has happened to me. Is it a test from God? When I think about this I think about this the same thing runs through my head. "When I pray for God to heal me, I want him to heal some suffering child at Childrens. Don't waste you time on me when there are many more people who need a miracle." I feel selfish when I ask God for time. I can make it through without His attention. I ask for His attention to be on someone more needy. Please pray that God will triage His the prayers and give to the most needy. Please pray in this way.
I hate to complain about my situation. But than again I want my friends and family to be with me! I can't face it alone.
Thank you for your wonderful words, I read and reread me many time. I hope my tomorrows will include many fun time, (WITHOUT MR. PAIN thank you).
All my love Linda
I went to the Pain and Spine Doctor today and I will be getting a second injection on Wednesday. He's hope is if I got a 50% improvement with the first injection I'll see another 50% with this one. All I know if this injection does not give me what I need, I am ready for surgery!!
I began my pain on Oct. 31.The three weeks before my bowel surgery was the worst. (I still believe that the two things; bowel being strangled by scar tissue and back are connected. But no one seems to be interested in connecting the two). All I know is I'm exhausted of the pain and limitations it has put on my life.
I will have the 2nd injection Wednesday at 3:45. Today I cried when I told the doctor I am ready for this pain to be over. I NEED to get back to work. Its so scary when you have no control over your body.
I wonder why this has happened to me. Is it a test from God? When I think about this I think about this the same thing runs through my head. "When I pray for God to heal me, I want him to heal some suffering child at Childrens. Don't waste you time on me when there are many more people who need a miracle." I feel selfish when I ask God for time. I can make it through without His attention. I ask for His attention to be on someone more needy. Please pray that God will triage His the prayers and give to the most needy. Please pray in this way.
I hate to complain about my situation. But than again I want my friends and family to be with me! I can't face it alone.
Thank you for your wonderful words, I read and reread me many time. I hope my tomorrows will include many fun time, (WITHOUT MR. PAIN thank you).
All my love Linda
Sunday, November 27, 2016
Home from the Hospital
When a person gets sick you expect to get better. That's where I was at a mouth ago with my journery. I didn't say anything to my friends here because I just "expected" to get better. But that has not happened so I thought it was time to reach out to my friends, and family here for love and encouragment and most of all thier prayers.
The first days on Nov. I began to have very sharp electrical stabbing pains from my right hip down to my knee, It prevented my from walking more that a few feet without intense pain. The doctors diagnosed sciatica pain. I could not even work the pain was so severe. I have never had this type of pain before. Everytime I woke up I thought "maybe it's going to be gone." All I'd have to do is move than Mr Pain would smile would take another bit and I knew he stlll lived here.
The next three weeks entailed: hip exrays, MRI, chiropractor. As I dragged myself to these appointments it was exhasting, mostly painly and frustrating. Waiting on appointments, going to "another doctor." All month I have bee alone with Mr Pain, hoping and praying someone could help me. Find a way to make him leave I felt as if I might as well lived in the 1800's. A woman in those times would be offered no medical help day to day as I was. I'm sorry to say I was dishearted by much loved medical profession. I felt abondoned. This did make me raise my arms to heaven and beg for The Lord's help. Though all of this the Mr Pain continued to be in residence.
Finally On Thursday Nov 17 I got in to see a pain specialist. (The scheduler told me I was "lucky" and they had a cancellation otherwise it would take 5 weeks to get in.) He revived my MRI and thought my discs looked okay. He thought there was some inflammation on my L5 and said he could given me a steriod injection on that Fri. Nov 18. ( When the scheduler call me and set up the time she told me I was "lucky" they had a cancellation on Fri. otherwise it was 3 weeks.) I HAD TO LIVE UNITL FRIDAY THE NEXT DAY, AT LAST MAYBE THE LONG 3 WEEKS OF PAIN COULD BE EASED. I was finally parting with my 1800's sister. Finally modern medication was going to help me.
I'm still shaking my head over the next turn of events. On Thursday morning after returning to the pain specialist with hope the next day was by freedom day. Tom dropped me off at home about 11am and he returned to work. Over the course of the next several hours I began the most intense stomachache of my life. It hurt so bad I was doubled over with buckets of sweat pouring off me me. I keep telling myself I HAD to get to tomorrow so I could get the the sinal injection to help my back. At about 3:00 my abdomen was distended to where I looked 9 months pregnant. Mr Pain was threwing electical shock down my leg for over 4 hours. I surrendered.
Tom came home from work and brought me to the ER. When I walked in I told them I was dying. They were wonderful, FINALLY SOMEONE IS LISTENING!! After a CAT scan that showed I had a bowel blockage! How does that happen TODAY??? I had taken very few pain meds since they did nothing to touch Mr. Pain. An EG Tube was placed. (Don't ask.) I was admitted to the hospital and awaited surgery. My doctor that was going to give me the shot for my leg was called. He would not commit to WHEN I could have the shot. He said he would wait to see what my bowel surgery intelled and than he would decide.
On Friday Nov. 18 surgery found there was a long piece of scar tissue "for the old c-section scar" that picked this time, this day to lasso my intestines. The surgery was able to do it laparoscopically. He just went in there and snipped that old scare tissue he said it was tight "like a bread wrapper."
Recovering from surgery I begin to feel better with my leg. I was hopefully that maybe all of this was connected. That the pulling on my intestines caused my back to be out of whack and that's where Mr Pain could be found. As of now 2-3 days out of surgery my pain was minimal down my leg. I realize now that I wasn't moving as much and was on pain medication from my surgery. I hugged my 1800's sister and said I've got one up on you. Sorry but you would have died from a bowel blockage, or worse yet died in childbirth because cesarean sections probably wouldn't have been a opition at that time.
As I came home I had to walk to move things around in my belly. I only looked 4 mouths pregnant at this time. The more I walked the better my stomach detention got, but I woke up Mr. Pain. He is not nice when you wake him from a long sleep. He took many bits out of my leg Thanksgiving Day. Luckly we didn't celebrate Thanksgiving until that Friday. God Bless my sweet daughters they scooped into the kitchen baking up a storm and present a prize winner dinner for us all. I can see only eat small amounts but is tasted delicious. I had to greive some at not being able to cook Thanksgiving meal. One of my highlights of the year. But such it is. I'm alive, my family in front of me were my true treasures. My sweet grandbabies delightedly me beyound measure.
Here is now the weekend. My surgical incisions (very small) look great. My stomach is back to normal size. My plan is to call the pain doc on Monday to see if he will do the injection sometime this coming week. If he give me the run around I have another doc that one of the Doctor's at work recommend to me that is good with spinal pain. I HAVE to find a way to get rid of Mr Pain. I have spent the complete of Nov closed in and praying for an answer.
I share this with all of you for a very selfish reason. I need your support, encouraging words, and too feel not so alone. Most of all I need your prayers.
The first days on Nov. I began to have very sharp electrical stabbing pains from my right hip down to my knee, It prevented my from walking more that a few feet without intense pain. The doctors diagnosed sciatica pain. I could not even work the pain was so severe. I have never had this type of pain before. Everytime I woke up I thought "maybe it's going to be gone." All I'd have to do is move than Mr Pain would smile would take another bit and I knew he stlll lived here.
The next three weeks entailed: hip exrays, MRI, chiropractor. As I dragged myself to these appointments it was exhasting, mostly painly and frustrating. Waiting on appointments, going to "another doctor." All month I have bee alone with Mr Pain, hoping and praying someone could help me. Find a way to make him leave I felt as if I might as well lived in the 1800's. A woman in those times would be offered no medical help day to day as I was. I'm sorry to say I was dishearted by much loved medical profession. I felt abondoned. This did make me raise my arms to heaven and beg for The Lord's help. Though all of this the Mr Pain continued to be in residence.
Finally On Thursday Nov 17 I got in to see a pain specialist. (The scheduler told me I was "lucky" and they had a cancellation otherwise it would take 5 weeks to get in.) He revived my MRI and thought my discs looked okay. He thought there was some inflammation on my L5 and said he could given me a steriod injection on that Fri. Nov 18. ( When the scheduler call me and set up the time she told me I was "lucky" they had a cancellation on Fri. otherwise it was 3 weeks.) I HAD TO LIVE UNITL FRIDAY THE NEXT DAY, AT LAST MAYBE THE LONG 3 WEEKS OF PAIN COULD BE EASED. I was finally parting with my 1800's sister. Finally modern medication was going to help me.
I'm still shaking my head over the next turn of events. On Thursday morning after returning to the pain specialist with hope the next day was by freedom day. Tom dropped me off at home about 11am and he returned to work. Over the course of the next several hours I began the most intense stomachache of my life. It hurt so bad I was doubled over with buckets of sweat pouring off me me. I keep telling myself I HAD to get to tomorrow so I could get the the sinal injection to help my back. At about 3:00 my abdomen was distended to where I looked 9 months pregnant. Mr Pain was threwing electical shock down my leg for over 4 hours. I surrendered.
Tom came home from work and brought me to the ER. When I walked in I told them I was dying. They were wonderful, FINALLY SOMEONE IS LISTENING!! After a CAT scan that showed I had a bowel blockage! How does that happen TODAY??? I had taken very few pain meds since they did nothing to touch Mr. Pain. An EG Tube was placed. (Don't ask.) I was admitted to the hospital and awaited surgery. My doctor that was going to give me the shot for my leg was called. He would not commit to WHEN I could have the shot. He said he would wait to see what my bowel surgery intelled and than he would decide.
On Friday Nov. 18 surgery found there was a long piece of scar tissue "for the old c-section scar" that picked this time, this day to lasso my intestines. The surgery was able to do it laparoscopically. He just went in there and snipped that old scare tissue he said it was tight "like a bread wrapper."
Recovering from surgery I begin to feel better with my leg. I was hopefully that maybe all of this was connected. That the pulling on my intestines caused my back to be out of whack and that's where Mr Pain could be found. As of now 2-3 days out of surgery my pain was minimal down my leg. I realize now that I wasn't moving as much and was on pain medication from my surgery. I hugged my 1800's sister and said I've got one up on you. Sorry but you would have died from a bowel blockage, or worse yet died in childbirth because cesarean sections probably wouldn't have been a opition at that time.
As I came home I had to walk to move things around in my belly. I only looked 4 mouths pregnant at this time. The more I walked the better my stomach detention got, but I woke up Mr. Pain. He is not nice when you wake him from a long sleep. He took many bits out of my leg Thanksgiving Day. Luckly we didn't celebrate Thanksgiving until that Friday. God Bless my sweet daughters they scooped into the kitchen baking up a storm and present a prize winner dinner for us all. I can see only eat small amounts but is tasted delicious. I had to greive some at not being able to cook Thanksgiving meal. One of my highlights of the year. But such it is. I'm alive, my family in front of me were my true treasures. My sweet grandbabies delightedly me beyound measure.
Here is now the weekend. My surgical incisions (very small) look great. My stomach is back to normal size. My plan is to call the pain doc on Monday to see if he will do the injection sometime this coming week. If he give me the run around I have another doc that one of the Doctor's at work recommend to me that is good with spinal pain. I HAVE to find a way to get rid of Mr Pain. I have spent the complete of Nov closed in and praying for an answer.
I share this with all of you for a very selfish reason. I need your support, encouraging words, and too feel not so alone. Most of all I need your prayers.
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